Sorry {100 Theme Challenge}

Rip stared down at her once favourite outfit. The rust blood that had permanently made that outfit unable to be worn without endless guilt from the girl made  her pause and stare intently whenever she saw it. She had no recollection of the events that had happened only a few weeks prior, finding it confusing that someone would have stolen her favourite outfit just to kill Upulst. It made no sense to her.

Then again, it confused her to no end how she would wake up in the middle of the night, trembling and saying, “I’m so sorry” over and over while clutching onto her chest. It made no sense how she always had the same dream. She was standing there, staring at two figures who stood upon a hill, the two gripping onto each others hands tightly while they appeared to simply stand there and enjoy each others company. Rip vaguely remembered that everytime before she woke up in a cold sweat, the two had turned around to face her. The same striking feature always stuck in her mind.

It was Upulst and Aminah and their eyes were white, signifying that they both were indeed ghosts.

Though why Aminah would be dead confused Rip to no end. Surely the troll girl was still alive… Right? Wrong. She knew this as she heard footsteps drawing near her and a gentle hand was placed on her shoulder. She heard a soft voice say, “Aminah has passed.” before the hand was removed and the person left, leaving Rip to her own misery.

She stared at the outfit before her still, blinking a bit as her brow furrowed in confusion. “Why would she just…?” She muttered in confusion, crossing her arms and digging her nails into her upper arms. “Ughhh this is so confusing!” she hissed, falling onto her bottom  and grabbing onto her hair with her hands, tugging on her brown locks. “What the hell did I even do!?” Her voice raised in volume, enabling others to hear her confusion. Obviously no one wanted to get in the way as no one offered help.

“Jesus… It’s almost like I caused a murder with how you all are acting…” Rip started, quieting down in her tone as she rested her chin on her knees. “If that’s the case then… I’m really sorry…” She knew a simple ‘Sorry’ wouldn’t cut it. She flumped onto her side, not bothering to pick herself up or go somewhere more comfortable than the floor. No. She’d get through this. She’d see the two and apologize and when that was done… Do whatever she had to do in order to feel more at peace with herself. It felt like almost immediately when she had managed to fall asleep and travel back to the dream bubbles that she had been constantly visiting.

Rip looked around, frowning a bit as she took in her surroundings. “These are the dream bubbles, alright…” She muttered to herself as she began walking. She shuddered at some of the stares the ghosts directed toward her. Staring as if she would snap and kill them all in a matter of seconds. “What is it with these people?”

Rip shrugged off all her questions, continuing her stride until she got to the spot she wanted, no, NEEDED to be at. Again, the same couple. However, instead of facing away from her, they faced her and acknowledged her presence.

“Took you long enough to get back to us,” Upulst stated, his tone full of disgust and hatred. “We were wondering if you chickened out again, Rip.”

“No I didn’t. Just…” Rip paused, adverting her eyes from the two. Without looking back, she muttered a soft, “I’m sorry…”

“What was that? I couldn’t hear you over how much of a little bitch you are!” Upulst spat, crossing his arms tightly over his chest and breaking his hand-holding with Aminah who simply stood there, watching intently. “You think it’s alright to kill three people, one in a less than direct way, and just waltz up all “Oh I’m sorry for killing you can we still be friends?” Life doesn’t work that way, Rip! Get your happy ass out of your fantasy and face the damn music already!”

“Look, Upulst, I really am sorry I don’t know wha---“ Rip was cut off yet again by Upulst, flinching a bit when his voice was raised even more.

“Of course you don’t! You just are choosing not to remember because you can’t ACCEPT the fact that you KILLED three people and got off with a simple warning! You may have everyone fooled with that pathetic “I don’t remember doing this” act but you’re going to be found out sooner or later! Hell. I’m curious to see the outcome of that. Probably gonna be a real funny incident when it happens,” Upulst said, a smirk forming on his face. “I hope they kill you in the most brutal way possible.”

Rip stopped, her entire body suddenly shivering at the severe honesty in his words. Her eyed were widened and staring at the enraged troll before her and she found herself at a loss for what to say.

“U-Upulst that’s incredibly harsh…” Aminah said softly, looking at the troll next to her. “B-But I-I can’t help but agree with him for it… I-It’s what you get for doing those things.”

Rip felt numb and her eyes became downcast again. Her head hung and her body swayed a bit. “Fine, then… I’ll do it myself if you want…” She muttered, turning around a bit.

“Go ahead. Commit suicide. Just don’t show your face around here ever again,” Upulst shot back, watching as Rip stopped in her tracks and turned her head to him.

“Understood. Bye.” The two watched as her dream self faded away, signifying that her real self had woken up.

“T-That was incredibly rude of you, U-Upulst… W-We should at least offer her some assistance when she comes back. W-What’s that saying, again? L-Leave the past behind you or something like that?” Aminah said, frowning a bit as her face contorted into that of concentration.

“I know. And I have already done that. The point needed to get through her dense head that those things aren’t acceptable and I’m not going to stand for that. I’ll admit, telling her to never show herself to us again was a bit harsh of me, but it helped get the message through to her,” Upulst started, sighing heavily as he uncrossed his arms and looked to Aminah, a slight smile forming on his face. “Tell ya what. We’ll be the first to accept her here in the dream bubbles and I’ll apologize to her.”

“T-That’s awfully kind of you. C-Come. I-I have the feeling I-I know where she’ll come in from,” Aminah started, grabbing onto Upulst’s hand as she started dragging him towards the beach.

Rip sat up, sitting there momentarily before standing up completely. She had quickly written up a small note, meant for anyone who found it and showed it around. Folding it up and placing it where she had just been sleeping, she began her walking. She ignored her Moirail who pestered her, following her around. When Rip stopped, turning to Sarah with a pained smile on her face she got her Moirail in a tight hug. “Bye, Sarah. I’ll see ya later, okay?”

“What are you-“ Sarah stopped when Rip let her go and vanished with a flick of her wrist. A look of worry crossed onto her face but she didn’t know what to do, having no idea where her Moirail had gone. Instead, she just turned and trudged back to the others, trying to figure out what the hell was going on.

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Rip stepped out of the water, looking at the dream version of the beach she had previously drowned herself in. To her completely surprise, she was standing before Upulst and Aminah. Aminah had a faint smile on her face and Upulst simply stood there, appearing to be shocked at this.

“You actually… Did it.” The complete shock in his voice caused Rip to look at him in a curious manner.

“Of course I did. You were right… I do remember killing you all and Aminah in a very indirect way… But I wasn’t… Expecting you two to be here. I thought you told me to never show myself to you two ever again…” Rip’s voice trailed as she stared at them both, looking between the two.

“About that… I wanted you to realize that what you had done was completely wrong and incredibly uncalled for. But… I wasn’t expecting you to take my word of suicide literally,” Upulst admitted, grimacing a bit. “So I should just get to the point where I say sorry for being as rude to you as I was.”

“No. It’s fine. I’m sorry for killing you but the past is the past, is it not?” Rip said, a smile soon forming over her face.

“I-If I-I may ask… D-Did you at least leave something to let everyone know what you did?” Aminah asked, tilting her head to the side.

“Of course I did. I left a note for anyone who found it basically explaining I drowned myself so I could make up for the deaths I did,” Rip responded, nodding her head firmly. “I was smart in that aspect.”

“Wow. Wasn’t expecting you to let anyone know in a note of all things. But I guess I can understand. Oh well.” Upulst shrugged before he grinned, looking to Rip. “So, how about the grand tour of the place? We might find Lily so you can apologize for beating her skull in with a hammer.”

“Deal. Show me around, you two! I am forever to listen to you both,” Rip said, bowing to the two with a smile, closing her now white eyes.

To anyone it may concern,
I’m sorry. I lied to you all about not remembering what happened. I remember it all vividly and I am honestly regretting every minute of it.
So I’ve gone to do what’s right. If you never see my physical form again, please don’t fret. I’ll be wandering through the dream bubbles.
I’m sorry for having to do this but…
It’s what will help wash my grief away and help me start on a new path.
I’m so, so sorry for any pain I’ve caused all of  you.
So sorry…
~Rip